I went through a trauma when I was 18 years old.  I had normal counselling afterwards and thought that I was ok.  But whatever I thought, there were things that I couldn’t help.  Like flashbacks in the day, or freezing suddenly, or feeling afraid for no apparent reason.  I could rationalise it all I wanted, such as it was not my fault, but that wasn’t how I felt.  What I did feel was that there was a hole in me where something had been ripped out.
 I approached EMDR with caution, not really sure how to handle blue lights flashing up and down a black bar.